Lately, I've been seeing death everywhere.
I've started watching a movie called Waking Life again. Whenever I see that movie, I always become phylosophical and deep and I start questioning everything around me. Before reading this entry, I'm going to suggest that you assume that there is some higher entity out there, like God, just for the sake of this discussion.
Anyhow, the death thing started when I was getting ready for class. I didn't have enough time to watch the whole movie so I was just going to listent to the music at the credits. Since I havethe illegal pirated a really weird version of the movie, I have to manually find the beginning of the credits, instead of just using the scene selection tool that is typically available in movies made in the 21st century. While I was looking for the credits, I found one of the last scenes near the end of the movie where the main character was talking to a pinball guy about time and dreams and death.
The pinball guy was explaining a dream he once had. Before the dream, he had read an essay by Philip K. Dick about his book Flow my Tears, the Policeman Said. Basically, long story short, four years after Dick wrote his book, he went to a party and met a woman who was exactly like the female character of his book; she even had a boyfriend and an affair with people with the same name and job as the people from his book. Later on, Dick had to go mail a letter and in the parking lot, he saw a really sketchy guy standing by his car. Dick approached him (something that he'd usually never do) and asked "Can I help you?" the guy told him that he ran out of gas so Dick gave him some money (something else he'd usually never do). After driving off, Dick realized that the guy had no way to get to a gas station so he drove back and found the guy and dropped him off at a gas station. That's when he realized that the gas station and the guy he helped were also right from his book. He went and told his priest about it because he was getting pretty freaked out. His priest then told him that what he was describing was from the Book of Acts (from the Bible). Dick had never read that so he went home and did that. Then he noticed that the story and even the names in the Book of Acts were the same as the book he wrote. That's when he came up with the theory that time is actually an illusion and that some demon had created the illusion to make people forget that Christ was supposed to come again and that we were actually living in 50AD (when the Book of Acts was supposedly written).
Now in the pinball guy's dream, he dreamed that he was talking to Lady Gregory and she said "Let me explain to you the nature of the universe" and proceeded to tell him that Dick's theory of time is right except that we're not in 50AD, we're in a single instant that's eternity. It's in that instant that God is posing a question "Do you want to be one with eternity/do you want to be in heaven?" and we're replying "no, not yet". So "time" is really just us saying "no" to God's invitation and death is when we finally say "yes". And it's like that for everything that's alive. yadda yadda yadda and so on and so forth
Right after watching that scene, I was walking to the bus. On my street, I saw a dead squirrel. It didn't look like it had been hit by a car or mauled by some animal; it looked peaceful and at rest. As soon as I saw it, I thought "yes", not as if "yes i love dead animals" but rather "yes it was finally ready to become one with eternity". And then suddenly, Dead Tree by Dir en Grey started playing on my mp3/mp4 player thing which kind of creeped me out because I was staring at a dead thing and listenning to a song about death.
Then the next day, I was on my way to class and I saw a dead skunk and a dead raccoon on some streets that never have dead animals on them, which was pretty weird. And then I keep hearing discussions about death. And I can't stop thinking about it.
I don't really think of death as death but rather of change. I keep seeing this symbolism everywhere so I'm starting to think that some big, radical change is going to happen soon and I can't decide if it will be good or bad.
I've started watching a movie called Waking Life again. Whenever I see that movie, I always become phylosophical and deep and I start questioning everything around me. Before reading this entry, I'm going to suggest that you assume that there is some higher entity out there, like God, just for the sake of this discussion.
Anyhow, the death thing started when I was getting ready for class. I didn't have enough time to watch the whole movie so I was just going to listent to the music at the credits. Since I have
The pinball guy was explaining a dream he once had. Before the dream, he had read an essay by Philip K. Dick about his book Flow my Tears, the Policeman Said. Basically, long story short, four years after Dick wrote his book, he went to a party and met a woman who was exactly like the female character of his book; she even had a boyfriend and an affair with people with the same name and job as the people from his book. Later on, Dick had to go mail a letter and in the parking lot, he saw a really sketchy guy standing by his car. Dick approached him (something that he'd usually never do) and asked "Can I help you?" the guy told him that he ran out of gas so Dick gave him some money (something else he'd usually never do). After driving off, Dick realized that the guy had no way to get to a gas station so he drove back and found the guy and dropped him off at a gas station. That's when he realized that the gas station and the guy he helped were also right from his book. He went and told his priest about it because he was getting pretty freaked out. His priest then told him that what he was describing was from the Book of Acts (from the Bible). Dick had never read that so he went home and did that. Then he noticed that the story and even the names in the Book of Acts were the same as the book he wrote. That's when he came up with the theory that time is actually an illusion and that some demon had created the illusion to make people forget that Christ was supposed to come again and that we were actually living in 50AD (when the Book of Acts was supposedly written).
Now in the pinball guy's dream, he dreamed that he was talking to Lady Gregory and she said "Let me explain to you the nature of the universe" and proceeded to tell him that Dick's theory of time is right except that we're not in 50AD, we're in a single instant that's eternity. It's in that instant that God is posing a question "Do you want to be one with eternity/do you want to be in heaven?" and we're replying "no, not yet". So "time" is really just us saying "no" to God's invitation and death is when we finally say "yes". And it's like that for everything that's alive. yadda yadda yadda and so on and so forth
Right after watching that scene, I was walking to the bus. On my street, I saw a dead squirrel. It didn't look like it had been hit by a car or mauled by some animal; it looked peaceful and at rest. As soon as I saw it, I thought "yes", not as if "yes i love dead animals" but rather "yes it was finally ready to become one with eternity". And then suddenly, Dead Tree by Dir en Grey started playing on my mp3/mp4 player thing which kind of creeped me out because I was staring at a dead thing and listenning to a song about death.
Then the next day, I was on my way to class and I saw a dead skunk and a dead raccoon on some streets that never have dead animals on them, which was pretty weird. And then I keep hearing discussions about death. And I can't stop thinking about it.
I don't really think of death as death but rather of change. I keep seeing this symbolism everywhere so I'm starting to think that some big, radical change is going to happen soon and I can't decide if it will be good or bad.
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